So this morning at 0900 - i got a call from my manager monica, stating that i will be receiving a WARN letter - bascially it means i could lose my job. if i dont lose my job then i will probably move onto a different shift, different hours, different unit.
lots of changes. - how am i feeling? ok i guess. i dont really understand whats going on but PRN (our union) will be having a meeting tomorrow that me and my friend sumini will go to tomorrow. also they are gonna put info on their website. what else am i feeling? - im scared, but really who isn't scared of the unknown. i was reading my friends blog - chris reynolds - who is in spain by the way for a whole year teaching and im super proud of him - and he was talking about his fears of the unknown as well. so good or bad change is still scary for everyone. what else am i feeling - a bit of anger and frustration but i am trying not to dwell on those feelings because thats not how i want to feel. i was really looking forward to these next few days off - since i got off on sunday early at 3 with a mandatory HC ( aka we were overstaffed and had to be sent home). i wouldnt have to be back at work until friday. well sunday when i got home i fell asleep at 530 pm and woke up at 11 with what i thought were allergies. well went back to bed and woke up the next morning feeling horrible. cold/ flu like symptoms - i got out of bed a max of 3 times. thomas was really nice and went out and got me food - the new forms of chicken noodle soup i enjoy - tortilla soup from el pollo loco and chicken pho - a vietnamese soup.
both were yummy and helped my tummy since i was taking all that gross dayquill that burns my stomach.
then i start to feel better on tuesday and hang out with daddy and mommy and boba even took and passed her canine good citizenship test! i know she could do it - she had a few boba bumps aka her stubborness where she kept looking at her daddy and not listening but she passed and thats all that counts. now we can go on to therapy dog classes and i think we get a percentage off on our homeowners insurance.
boba got a celebratory toro that moos hahah. and they got this panda bear where you stuff it with a soda bottle instead of stuffing - which is good bc prime has a knack for making little holes and ripping out stuffing. and boba gets to share with prime - bc she has too :) but also because he was there for moral support and helped cheer sissy on!
so then today i get this news about the layoffs. but i want to enjoy my last 2 days off before i have to work work work. but lets not think about this. im gonna go out and do things. i have already told my family and friends and i have a great support system and everyone keeps reminding me to give it up to God. and really its so comoforting to know i dont have anything i can do and that He is big enough to take care of it. it's hard for me to give up control but when i get in the situation where i dont even have any control - its a welcome break. so for now. im going to live life chin up , and go to dennys for breakdfast and then a place that always cheers me up - window shop at Target. you know you love me xoxo.